At LAN! This is amazing.
Halloween and bonfire night have vome and gone. Summer lies even further back in my memories as the nights grow colder. They are even more colder when you’re on your own. I was talking to a friend of mine the other night I said how I needed to be on my own and focus on family and friends and ive done just that. Yet I can’t help but feel tough times would be made easier with someone else to help you back on your feet when you’ve scraped your knees.
I didn’t get the job the other day despite everything being in my favour which means I can’t afford to go travelling next year and that im stuck working in 2 jobs that are literally driving me in to the ground. Aye, things could be worse but all I have is the hope of getting away next year. Noone has said it out loud and I havent either but we’re all thinking it.
If I get offered a full time job out in america somewhere next year id take it and never look back.
I often wonder if maybe im running away from my problems but why should I stay here and fix a place thats already decayed. I love this place and it will always be home but there is so much to see and do why not go?
If there was someone who didn’t mind a sarcastic ginger prick who liked a laugh to go on an adventure to see the world, well they’d be perfect. But perfect doesnt exist. Looks like this fellowship is just a fellow now…
Sorry for the typos etc. Its late and im on my phone.
This means that I am completely… Fucked.
Had a bath and read The Dark Tower: Wastelands. It was clearly too intense for me too handle.
I’d do anything to make it stop…
I just don’t know what anything is.
As weird as it might sound to someone who isn’t a gamer, having those people there can make a hell of a difference to the way you’re feeling. Not gonna lie its tough without them. Friends; in any capacity, will always cheer you up and make you feel wanted, accepted, needed. Without them I do feel like im missing out on a part of my life. I’ve dealt with so much over the past 6 months. Ive lost A LOT of friends and I feel so uncomfortable in my current surroundings. Yet I will never be judged and forever accepted for who I am. Even if that is a ginger geek with no imagination when it comes to making a characters name.
You have no idea how high I can fly.
So this is a thing. I have no money though…
I wore my heart on my sleeve and you stole my fucking shirt